Dispatches from The Mayan Empire

“I am writing this under an appreciable mental strain, since by tonight I shall be no more. Penniless, and at the end of my supply of the drug which alone makes life endurable, I can bear the torture no longer; and shall cast myself from this garret window into the squalid street below.” ― H.P. Lovecraft, Dagon + + +  So this post is a tad unusual. Its a plea. Fuck I hate doing this kind of thing.  A plea, one I had not expected to make as for a good while everything was going fairly, mostly, well for me in financial matters. However my passport expires soon, which is only a problem since I live in a foreign country at the moment. I had the money to renew it, but my car blew out two tires in one week. One from simple fatigue by the look of it, the other one caught a bullet ricochet while I was driving with two friends in the car. It would seem we passed down the wrong street in the wrong town. It happens. It sucks, and drained my savings

"When life itself seems lunatic, who knows where madness lies? Perhaps to be too practical is madness. To surrender dreams — this may be madness. Too much sanity may be madness — and maddest of all: to see life as it is, and not as it should be!" - Miguel de Cervantes Saavedra, Don Quixote  + + + I have been absent from this blog for a good long time now. Other things have occupied my time. My novel, basic survival, crippling depression, agonizing pain and the desperate search for some relief from it, and surely more than that. Do not think I have forgotten you, my dozens of readers. Oh no. Not a day goes by that I don't think upon this little collection of personal history and attempts at witty observations. There just never seems anything to say. Not worth putting down anyway. But here I am. Once again attempting to give my audience something to chew on while I myself go over what I write again and again hoping I'm not embarrassing myself any further.

“When a man is denied the right to live the life he believes in, he has no choice but to become an outlaw.” - Nelson Mandela + + + Woke up feeling good despite some setbacks. All in all it wasn't a bad day yesterday except for Tessa running off in the middle of the night and no coming home after an hour or to as usual. So far she has been missing almost 20 hours, so I have been unable to administer her medication... then my right front tire went out on me (It developed a bubble the size of a tennis ball) and I had to use the last of my cat-related savings to keep Greta from becoming an expensive lawn ornament. Thats life, you win some, you get kicked in the balls with a steel toed boot. Many hours later, nearly 24, Tessa has returned. She is clearly fond of our giant yard and the local businesses nearby, Thankfully the neighborhood is fulled with generally nice folks, and her collar clearly states where she lives, That said, seeing a couple of apparent cart

“Our nation was born in genocide when it embraced the doctrine that the original American, the Indian, was an inferior race. Even before there were large numbers of Negroes on our shore, the scar of racial hatred had already disfigured colonial society. From the sixteenth century forward, blood flowed in battles over racial supremacy. We are perhaps the only nation which tried as a matter of national policy to wipe out its indigenous population. Moreover, we elevated that tragic experience into a noble crusade. Indeed, even today we have not permitted ourselves to reject or feel remorse for this shameful episode. Our literature, our films, our drama, our folklore all exalt it. Our children are still taught to respect the violence which reduced a red-skinned people of an earlier culture into a few fragmented groups herded into impoverished reservations.” ― Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.  + + + [This post is reprinted and somewhat altered from its original version on my private FB a

Just a short, simple notice to the dozens of readers who keep up with my ramblings that I might have some time soon to start working on this project again. It tuns out writing a novel and getting it published is hard work. Who would have thought that? Anyways, look for more content from 'Dispatches' in the not too distant future, despite working on a sequel to the novel. As well as a collection of shot stories which involve collaboration with a bunch of fine artists... damn, I really do hate boredom it would seem... The novel can be found at the link below, and for the next 3 days (from 8am or pm until 8am or pm on the 2nd of February) will be $0.99. Slightly less than a dollar. Hopefully many of you will look at that and say "I'd buy THAT for a dollar!" https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B07KVRCN17?pf_rd_p=1581d9f4-062f-453c-b69e-0f3e00ba2652&pf_rd_r=X34725S0SQDRAHVZJ857